Naughty Nymph Ramblings

I thought I could get away with recording another vlog entry for ya'll -- thinking it might be easier to get anyone interested in getting caught up with what's been going on with me via one of my goofy videos, but it's just not in the cards right now.

Unfortunately, my main computer is down for the count. I'm trying to do what I can to get the important stuff I hadn't backed up (yes, I do back-up, but not as frequently as I should) off of it and see about possibly reformatting it, but it's old. It's beat up. It's been through a lot, and I'm not sure that'll do the trick. Honestly, I really only wanted it to hang in there for a few more months when I could more realistically afford to buy a new computer. But, that's not how my luck tends to go with my hardware.

Someone who does as much online, particularly with webcam work as I do, really NEEDS more than one working computer, and I've been on a partially-functional computer for over a year now. I'm two OS behind and making my box work the way that I've have putting in non-stop hours, pushing its specs to the limits -- really only a matter of time before it hits bottom and can not resurface. Who knows, maybe it'll turn out alright for my poor computer, but my gut feeling is that it's really over now. Le Sigh.

When I say "main computer" like I have at the beginning of this entry, what I really mean is: the only computer that will turn on and can connect to the internet. I've got four totally worthless computers that I've been carting around the country that I wasn't ready to destroy -- because once there's homemade porn starring yourself on a hard drive -- that's really your only option. Providing your machines can't be fixed. I think that's where my optimism comes in. I like to believe that someday I really will be able to diagnose what's wrong with these machines and be able to fix them, get them working like new, and then have my house all networked up so I can be rendering/uploading video and doing other cool stuff 24/7. I mean not going for the Kevin Smith/Warlock in Die Hard 4 hardcore computer geek palace sheik sort of vibe, but something involving more than one working computer would greatly aid my amateur pornographer ambitions. At the very least, I won't be forced offline where I'll starve to death because 90% of my income comes from being an adult webcam performer.
I'm pretty sure that I'm going to cave in and put a new cheapo laptop on my Best Buy Card within the next few days just so I can keep working because I'm (as usual) already super behind on all things AmberLily.net. The computer I'm using now isn't one I can stay on. Inherited from BigD's mom, it was only used for word-processing and doesn't have much in the way of what your average webgirl needs even if you strip out all of the Family Tree Maker and various "helpful" AOL BS.

Between the move from Seattle to Los Angeles, dealing with living in an old house with antiquated plumbing and electrical (scary stuff for me folks, we lost BigD's work computer because of the electrical in this house...), dealing with the fall-out from being away from my family for the last six years and how resentful they are because of my absence and how we *needed* to go full-tilt drama over Christmas -- getting off to the right start in 2010 has been difficult.

Even still, I am all about fresh starts and remaining hopeful in the face of great challenges. I won't rehash 2009 for you, but BigD's mother's death last January has impacted us financially in ways that will take us YEARS to recover from. But we're home now and trying to rebuild what we've lost, and there is SUNSHINE almost every day! Even if I'm putting in tons of hours on webcam because I have more financial responsibilities, I *know* that 2010 will be a healing year. There will be time for me to get out and smell the roses, but for now -- now I better keep working hard. In a few months, I'm sure I'll get to do more fun stuff that will make for more exciting blog entries. In the mean time, you'll have to keep your eyes peeled for more pictures of Dutch and my theories/feelings on the final season of LOST.

And more updates for my sites! I'll get my computer situation figured out someway or other. New Year's Resolution #1!

Your favorite spazzzz camgirl recorded this vlog for you in the wee hours of Christmas morn, and she hopes that you'll dig it while having a warm and wonderful holiday. (If you're into that kind of thing.) Isn't the frame this vlog's stuck on a horrible image of me? Hurry up and make it play so you can see that okay and not suffering from some kind of bizarre mental illness... Hey, wait a second... Just kidding!

And here is our new family member: Dutch, the Puppy Cyclone, who sat still just long enough for me to get this picture. So what do you think: German Shepherd/Husky Mix or is he gonna turn out more Border Collie?

That's right, tonight's our last night in Seattle! Our apt here is just about all packed up, and we're finally moving back home to Southern California. It's been a long time coming, that's for sure. We wanted to move away from here right after BigD's mom passed away, but we've been stuck with her house in probate all these long months, and now that *that* nasty shit is ending -- we're running for it before any more time passes. I'd like to say that we've remained unscathed, but probate is a truly evil process that has sucked us dry *and then some* unfortunately. Folks keep asking me *where* in Southern California we're moving to but all I feel comfortable saying is near Los Angeles. Remember, I've been recognized a few times over and since I'm not a full-blown celebrity type -- I'm entitled to as much privacy as I want. :)

I'm only anticipating being without an internet connection through Thursday, December 3rd so stay tuned for a rescheduled group show if you're a member of either of my sites: AmberLily.net or NymphFeet.com. Of course, I wished that I'd gotten another gallery update finished before I hit the road, but I'm confident that the set I've been editing will post not long after I arrive. Any time you do an out-of-state move it tends to get complicated, and my head's been fried with all of those relocation details.

So here's to hoping we have a safe trip down and for a better, more sunshine-filled life back home in Southern California. I'm not sure how much tweeting I'll do from the road, but there's bound to be a few. Follow me on Twitter:HERE if you aren't already.

Last Tuesday, I performed my first of two costume camshows of the 2009 Halloween Season & it was a hoot. With all that's been going on in recent weeks, I figured I'd just focus on the last two weeks of October with my usual costumey-enthusiasm. So I put on my Sexy Miss Freddy Krueger ensemble (minus the footware because I wanted to get make sure it was a good soles-in-fishnet pantyhose show) and had fun for an hour with my regular Camz viewers. I bought this costume last year to wear to BigD's company Halloween party and figured the red and green sweater dress would keep me and my little sweater puppies nice and toasty, hehe. Plus, I admit it, I've always wanted an excuse to have my very own "Freddy Fingers" -- Freddy's sinister glove with razor blade fingers is such fun to goof off with. So totally iconic! I could play with them forever!

Many years ago, when we were on like the forth or fifth "A Nightmare on Elm Street" installment, there was a phone-in contest where the contestants were asked three questions about the movies and your's truly called in. I got them all correct and won (what was at that time) the complete collection of movies on VHS and some collectible card stuff. That so ruled! I was thrilled to death that I'd *actually* won something. Of course, it wasn't too much longer before VHS became obsolete, but I kept those tapes for a long time -- my winnings! It wasn't until Christmas our first year in Memphis that BigD gifted me with the *now* complete dvd collection of some of my favorite scary movies. Okay, okay, so "A Nightmare on Elm Street Part 2: Freddy's Revenge" *does* suck badly, but I do occasionally bust out the others. I like both 1 & 3 a lot -- those two are the ones I've seen the most amount of times. And you know, I'm not at all sure what I'll think about the Michael Bay remake due out in 2010. The casting and trailer look decent.

Anyhoo, the replay of my Sexy Miss Freddy Krueger show is up for members of AmberLily.net. You'll want to try and catch it before I do my show on Tuesday, October 27th and the replay will be changed out with the show I perform that evening. With all of the system changes at Camz, there hasn't been a way for me to download and post more permanent archives of my group shows or make those highlight clips that they like to use for promotional purposes, but I'm sure they'll make my latest past shows available at some point.



In other news, much more sad news, we lost our TT on Sunday. Our older orange cat had been diagnosed with terminal lymphoma back in April. We thought he might make it with us on our *still* upcoming move back home to SoCal, but it just didn't happen. He was our best cat -- one of the best cats I've ever shared any time with, actually. Whenever someone would tell me "I don't like cats because they are/do ______" -- I'd tell them they'd like our TT (Tigger Two) because he had so few "negative" cat traits. He was the ultimate companion cat. In his younger days (when he was an indoor/outdoor kitty in Southern California), he would play with all of the neighborhood children, and they loved him. They'd actually knock on the door and ask if TT could come out to play. TT liked just about everyone, came whenever called, would lap-sit for as long as he was welcomed, and slept with us almost every night. We were lucky to have had him for as long as we did and suffering yet another loss this year, a year where there have been *so many* losses, was really hard. TT wasn't in much pain during his last moments; he was a trooper all the way to the end -- dying in my arms before our appointment to have him put to sleep last Sunday morning.

There are days when our cats are the only living, flesh and blood beings that I see aside from my husband because I work from home, and yes, because we haven't had children yet -- I do think of them as our babies and "our kids". I knew that Captain was going to have a hard time with TT's passing because even though they'd always had a Mr. Wilson/Dennis The Menace type of relationship. (TT being Mr. Wilson & Captain being Dennis for those of you who don't follow Cappy's clownish exploits on his twitter.) The days following TT's death were heart-wrenching with Captain meowing/searching for TT. All confused, he'd go hang out in TT's favorite places. And then there was acting out in other ways... The surviving cats have started peeing in places they shouldn't which is *really* abnormal for them. A sign they've been stressed out. I haven't caught anyone in the act just noticed afterward. Ugh. But, with each passing day, it's getting easier for all of us, and BigD and I are talking about the fun times with TT. Captain's been more attentive which has been cool.

I'm sure I could ramble on for a few more paragraphs about other stuff that's going on, but I'm gonna close now to get some shut-eye. It's only 5:24am now, lol. And another "Thank You" goes out to those who emailed or replied to me at twitter to send your condolences. Very sweet of ya'll!

Aren't I looking both trashy and glam all at the same time? Dressing up in those vertical-striped black thigh highs with my frilly "cuffs & collars" made me feel quite furiously sexy so I'm not thinking that this theatrical Doll look means that I'm as chaste as most real dollies strive to be all sexless with their pink parts carefully covered.

BigD came home after I'd only *just* started shooting and when he spotted all of the disposable plastic grocery bags around me and said -- "That makes no sense!" I batted by enormous faux eye-lashes back at him and replied with smooth "It doesn't *have* to make sense; I'm having fun." Trashy Dolls can happily pose and play in *trash* after all.



And since I have a love affair with my plastic bags (they have so many reusable uses!) I thought it would make for an awesome background that would, in part, cheer me up because we're still living in Seattle -- a place where they actually tried to impose a bag tax a couple of months ago. Argh. I'm simply not hippie enough to live here. I *do* reduce/recycle/reuse but I'm love love LOVE my plastic bags because they meet the needs of my household in a variety of areas. Remember, I've got four cats (until TT succumbs to cancer), a massive panty and lingerie collection, and a hubby who's a gamer. All of those benefit from a goodly stash of these plastic bags. I'm not an Uber-Green-Machine, and I don't want to be punished for not being one. Dislike my viewpoint and even hate me if you must -- but being lectured about not doing enough when I already feel like I *am* doing enough has gotten old. And it makes me grouchy. And rebellious.


I'm not saying all of this because I want to spurn a conversation/debate over the topic of recycling (particularly when much of it really does seem to mostly be about our feelings and what our pocketbooks might be feeling and that is tied to a bunch of other Bullshit). I am merely relaying my own personal feelings and how I arrived at this plastic bag playground for this photo set for AmberLily.net. Pretty easy to see where I shop the most too, huh? I do loves me some Target, Safeway, QFC, 7-11 and the Spirit Halloween Superstore. Mmmm hmmm.



So, let's get on with other things worth mentioning about this photo set. Did I already tell you that there are exactly 99 self-taken pictures this time? Well, there are! I figure that another shoot or two and I'll be back in the self-pornography groove. I'm especially proud of those that start around #26. (That would be the first sample up above there.)

Members can see the entire set inside my site, and if you're not a member and would like to -- please visit my sign up page to get hooked up!

I've been on a roll recently with sharing some amazing/sexy/adorable Star Wars links via my twitter lately, but I know not everyone catches me for every tweet as I am somewhat of a twitteraholic. Why not share them here too. I have selfish reasons too, of course, if I blog about them -- then I don't have to keep them as bookmarks. I can just pull up my blog and revisit.

"The Amazing"

The Ultimate Star Wars Apartment



Now, this place is probably the most tidy looking nerd palace I've ever seen. Most collector homes are chock full of not only collectibles but clutter as well. Originally spotted at Gizmodo via this link that was posted by Adam Frucci I believe I might have seen it elsewhere but am not sure now. I think the only things that are missing are the original Star Wars stuff of the Hasbro action figure variety. It's entirely too grown-up over there and needs some kids toys in the mix. It's possible that those are loaded up, still in their original blister packs, hidden in the closet or under the bed. If you think the above picture that I snagged is cool, then you need to see the whole set. And then, read all of the totally jealous user comments. So many boys, so green with envy over other boys collections -- trying to dis it all the way instead of appreciating it for the super stellar spectacle that it is.

"The Sexy"

Galactic Empire Corset Collection



Aren't these Star Wars corsets the freaking bomb? I was completely *blown away* by how original and how sexy these are. And if I were in the market to spend $500-600 on something Star Wars-y, this would be at the top of the list. If pressed to pick between the Galactic Lord or the Galactic Trooper, it would be the Galactic Lord Corset all the way. The matching shrug with floaty cape are divine! And how terribly practical that it also comes with a utility belt. Somewhere to put the keys to the Death Star! :) I first saw these gorgeous costume pieces on Spike, but a quick search on Google turned up the actual maker: Evening Arwen.

And yeah, I saw the Star Trek corsets over at Spike, but ya know, those just weren't quite tickling my fancy. They aren't nearly loaded, are they? ;)

"The Adorable"

Animals With Lightsabers



How can you go wrong with Animals With Lightsabers? See, you just can't. And doesn't the photo above look like it could be my Captain? It's not, of course, it's a white kitty named Roxy. There's a variety of animals wielding lightsabers with more photos being added all the time, so it's good to stop by periodically to see what you missed. Ocassionally, you'll even get a fun Jedi Animal video. A sure way to lift your spirits & celebrate the Force at the same time.

Unfortunately, Camz went down today *right before* my weekly 1-hour group camshow was scheduled to start at 7pm ET / 4pm PT. I'm sure it was just another case of unknown/unexpected technical difficulties with their latest system changes. Nevertheless, I was on time and ready, and I hit my twitter to fill everyone in on what was going on as it was happening. Here's the three funny/sexy 12 second videos that I recorded to show off what I was wearing:


Well, it looks like Camz is down. But I was ready on time, see?


So a great big WTF with an !


Think I should surprise hubby in this lil ensemble?

So after goofing around and recording those, I decided to test out a free twitter-friendly cam service called CamTweet.com because I figured why not sit & chat while dressed up in my sexy red and black Cuban heel stockings before BigD got home. Things were purely non-nude as per their TOS, but it was a nice way to feel connected for a few moments with my site members and non-members alike -- after we figured out to use the chatroom to communicate with each other, of course. Not the easiest, most-streamlined method for webcam broadcasting, but my impromptu chat seemed to go over pretty well, and we appreciated the venue. I rambled up a storm about music and stripping and television shows and stuff while only getting tongue-tied a few times here and there. There was no clock at CamTweet, but I'm fairly certain that my free webcam stream lasted for 40-50 minutes or so and the quality wasn't half bad. The experience was a reminder that yes, webcam stuff can be fun *even* when it's just all talking and me playing with my hair while not getting naked.

I'm not sure that I'll be able to easily slip into another CamZ Group Show timeslot this week to attempt a make-up show, but if I can -- I will be sure to post it the members area & on my twitter. (And yes, I realize that my tweets over there in the sidebar of my blog are looking like ass -- I need to figure out a prettier way to display them. I just don't have it figured out yet.)